Wednesday, 22 October 2014

What Ellenah Did #6

I am not getting up! I don't care how many alarms are going off... my eyes shall stay firmly shut and that is all I have to say about the matter. Hang on, I just heard Mummy say 'Breakfast'...whoosh, I am up! Everybody.... Ellenah is up and Ellenah's loves breakfast time.

I had rice crispies today, they were gooooooood!

I looked out of the window this morning to check out the situation with the old weather. If there is a storm a-brewing like the one that we got stuck in last night, Mummy can think again if she thinks I'm going on any school run. I shall check every two minutes and inform everyone, every two minutes- 'it's sunny'.

When Noah finished gym club last night and as we were walking up the hill to come home, there was wind and rain and wind and wind and it was windy and it was raining. I got sooooo wet and so did Noah and so did Mummy and we couldn't see and we couldn't breathe and Noah got scared and started to cry so I cried because that made me scared. Mummy was saying 'it's ok, everything will be okay, I promise'. My pushchair was blown over by the wind and started to roll down the hill. Mummy picked it up, then she picked me up and Noah was holding her legs and she ran us all to the top of the hill. The wind was so strong we all had to kneel down with Mummy's coat over our heads so that we could carry on breathing. Mummy said it was a strange time to be camping and our tent wasn't very good. I didn't have the heart to tell her that we weren't camping... we were wet and cold and scared and she was mad.

She did tell us that she would get us home safely though... and she did!

Today, Mummy and Nanny took me and my bestest (except when we don't like each other) cousin to the ball park. We climbed up high and we went down the biggest slide. Mummy came down with us and we had a race. I probably won! We zoomed, whizzed, climbed, slid, jumped, laughed and sang and it was just so much fun. When it was time to go home... I did not like that. I want to live there actually. I don't like go now! Mummy tried to put on my shoes, so, I twisted my leg and flexed my foot anytime she tried to touch my feet... not a chance Mum! Then Mummy said, ' I'll have to eat your sweeties then, won't I?'... What, I find out there might be sweeties, seriously... Now she tells me?... So I look at my Mummy in the eyes, she looks back lovingly and I point to my feet as if to say 'Get a move on Woman, there are sweets involved here!'

I had a kinder egg, it was nice!

When we got home and after I had a little snooze, I woke up feeling a bit poorly. My throat hurt and I was coughing and Mummy said, 'You don't look yourself Sweetheart?'... Did somebody steal the Ellenah? Why did somebody take my face?... I said to Mummy, 'I am!'...and then I cried. What she said was mean. I am Ellenah. I had to have honey and lemon and it tastes-ted weird. I marched around the kitchen singing 'Ellenah's needs d' tockter'. Mummy put her ears to my chest to listen to my heart. She said I was okay. We repeated that about twenty times until I needed to pee. 

At bedtime, Mummy read me 'Guess How Much I Love You In The Spring'. It was about what little things grow into, like eggs and tadpoles. Mummy said that one day I will be a big girl like she is... I replied 'No! a frog'... I don't think she understood the story.

When Mummy gave me a kiss and said 'I love you Ellenah, goodnight'... I said 'I luw yooo more more more!'... Mummy smiled, a lot.

High fives and knuckles
Lots of Love
x Ellenah x

Sunday, 19 October 2014

Magic Monday #9

Hey Beautiful People...

I actually skipped out on Magic Monday last week. This wasn't at all because nothing made me smile. In fact, it was completely the opposite. I was busy living for the moment and being so very busy settling in Polly (Read about her HERE) to our home and all of that jazz. Our home has been buzzing.

Kid Cheer, Thumbs Up, Shout It From The Rooftops Pride
Okay so I am technically cheating because this did not happen in the past week but I didn't want to yell about it too early and it definitely deserves a place in my post about smiles and happiness. A couple of weeks ago, after Noah's gymnastics lesson... my little man who I still consider to be five months old rather than five was invited to join the Faversham gymnastics squad. It was quite a surprise to be honest- we were completely unsure how these things work and wasn't sure if the fact that he can practically do the box splits alongside other crazy things that make me panic, had been noticed. Well they had. On Tuesday, Noah had his first session in his new group and absolutely loved it as well as kept up with the other children. He completely held his own (while his emotional, anxious ruin of a Mother hid behind her hands and stopped breathing every time it was his turn to do what can only be described as a stunt, ha ha)... Needless to say, I am just super proud of my little man.

Birthday Smiles
Tuesday was an awesome day, not only did Noah have gymnastics but it was my birthday. Who doesn't love their birthday?! I turned the wise (I shan't say 'old') age of twenty eight- how did that ever happen? I had a lovely relaxed day with Matt and Ellenah, watched Noah at gym after school then I was whizzed in to Canterbury with my sisters to feast out at Nando's then to the Marlowe Theatre to watch 'Park'. I had a wonderful time. 'Park' is an expressive dance show which is completely my cup of tea. It made me miss being on stage and dancing massively. The show itself was... erm... odd, really odd but in the most spectacular way. I laughed, laughed, smiled and laughed. It was great.

Huge thanks to these Diamonds for spoiling me on my birthday, I had a smashing time.

T.V and Movie Joy
Yippee, The Walking Dead is back on our screens. My whole family is obsessed with this programme. For those of you who don't know, it is basically about a group of people trying to survive in a world full of walkers (zombies). Okay so it may sound a little done... but it is just way better than anything else along these lines, it's not even funny. It is so scary, heartbreaking, completely shocking yet, if we were suddenly over run by zombies, it would be totally relatable. It is definitely worth watching.

I have also been introduced to the movie 'pitch perfect' (a really girly movie about a glee club/choir group in college) and I am obsessed. Since I first watched it, I have seen it three times, watched the songs over and over on youtube and as I write this, I am listening to the soundtrack on spotify- I adore it. It makes me smile a lot.

I am pretty confident that I have forgotten a lot of things that have had me laughing, smiling or feeling so happy I could burst. I didn't get round to jotting too much down in my notepad this week. Grab all of the wonderment around you with both hands this week and 'Let your smile change the world, Don't let the world change your smile'...

So Much Love
x Maria x

Saturday, 18 October 2014

What Ellenah Did #5

Damn it's dark this morning... Some would say it's still night time, I disagree! 5am is a perfectly good time to get out of bed, walk in to Mummy's room and tug on her hair until her eyes ping open. Mummy said 'Ellenah, it's too early, back to bed!' and I replied by squeezing in her cheeks to make her face look squished. It makes her look hilarious. 

Mummy scooped me up in her arms for morning hugs... and to try and get me to go back to sleep. How stupid does she think I am?????? I hurried off to play with my kitchen, I'm going to make this chick breakfast in bed, it will make her day. I like it best when she is still sleeping and I see how much food I can post in to her mouth. So far I have managed one lot of peas in a pod, one runner bean, a bit of cheese and some chocolate... This means I am practically a ninja... a princess ninja.

We did a lot of walking today. The best bit was walking in to town because Mummy and I skipped down a really big hill. Mummy was smiling and I was laughing and an old man in a car started beeping and smiling and waving and it was fun and Mummy didn't care that she looked like she had a broken leg and I looked more awesome because I am a princess ninja. 

When we got in to town, we saw my cousin for her birthday. It was good, I had cake!

On the way home, I stepped in poop... doggy poop! It was ds'gusting! I didn't like it on my boot, it was stinky... so I wiped it on Mummy's jeans... she didn't like it either and she didn't want to skip any more after that. I'm not sure why?! 

Mummy read me a story when she was done 'disinfecting herself'... I think she meant her jeans but you never can tell with grown-ded ups, they talk nonsense most of the time. Like on the way home when Mummy was telling me about when she went somewhere with somebody and they did something... I think you had to be there because I yawned. Sometimes I think Mummy's should speak only when they are spoken to... for the best!

Saying that, Mummy can sing whenever she likes, especially 'wind bobbin' up' because I really like that song and I do sing it pretty well.

Anyway, I have to go, I am rather busy this week with wetting myself almost every time I need to pee. After being potty trained for about six or seven months, I have decided I need a break and I just don't think Mummy has done enough washing this week.

So, shall speak to you next week...
x Ellenah x

P.S. Check out what we did last week HERE.

Saturday, 11 October 2014

Meet Polly.....

Hi Everybody!

I am so pleased to introduce you to our beautiful new kitten Polly. She is around 5weeks old now. Her birth day was roughly the 5th September and she is MEGA small. If you read this post HERE, you will know that she has a rather interesting back story and her start in life wasn't the best.

She kind of looks like a furby/ Gizmo from the gremlins because she is soooo tiny, fluffy and light. Her face is really squished in to the middle of her face, she is adorable. 

I'm not sure if it is because she has had to be bold, brave and strong but the girl has got flair...and front! She walks around our house like she owns it already. She puts on a strutt and it appears that the world is her oyster. 

The children 'love love love her' and can't get enough of the cuddles. She hasn't made it in to Ellenah's pram yet but I'm sure it won't be long.

Noah is enjoying his big brother role much more now. He makes sure that she has enough love to last a life time. He is protective of her and encourages her to get enough sleep, food and rest to ensure she grows big and strong.

Puddle has been stalking her since she set foot through our front door and last night while she was eating... actually, while she was half eating and half bathing in her food (messy kitten!) Puddle took the opportunity to check her out and give her a little wash. I don't doubt that in time, they will become firm friends and partners in crime.

Matt can't quite get over how little she is... but he adores her as much as I do.

I hope that she is going to have the happiest life and the most wonderful home. She has been accepted in to our family with open arms and we are going to treasure her. beautiful is she??

I don't know if it is obvious, but she has totally won me over. My heart feels happy that she will know love in her lifetime. 

I am so glad that she has found her forever home with us! 
We have had her just a day and she is already eating like a champion, playing with her toys and using the litter tray like a complete pro (aside from one accident this morning on my sofa but we are all willing to forgive her- did I mention how cute she is?)

I am a big ball of smiles and happiness today ,I can't even express it in enough words....x

x Maria x

Friday, 10 October 2014

What Ellenah Did #4


Boom... My eyes are officially open!!

As I look around my room, I have decided...not only do Ellenah's hate Tuesday's, I don't like my name, your name, my hair, your hair, my clothes, your clothes, my breakfast, lunch or dinner, I don't like talking or listening, I detest walking, running, skipping, the sky, the trees, colouring in, painting, ballet, listening, my shoes, instruction, direction, authority, LISTENING, my house, outside, LISTENING!



Yaaaaaaaaawn!(huge stretches and smiles)...Good Morning All, It must be Tuesday today. I love Tuesday's... Ellenah's definitely love Tuesday's!! I also like my name, your name, my hair, your hair, my clothes, your clothes, my breakfast lunch and dinner. I love talking and listening. I adore walking, running and skipping. I heart the sky, the trees, colouring in, painting, ballet, listening, my shoes, instruction, direction, authority, LISTENING, my house, outside and LISTENING... Erm, Mummy just told me it was Wednesday... I love those too.

When we took Noah to school this morning, I wore my wellies and my winter coat. It is orange (YELLOW) and it's sooo warm. Huge luck really because the sky was crying... a lot! Mummy was saying, "Quickly Els and no puddles today Sweetheart"... She was obviously joking, I jumped in the lot. My Mummy did pick me up at one point, I'm not sure why but anyway, my welly boot fell off in to a puddle and things got awkward.

On the way home, the sky was still sad and we were getting very wet. Mummy wanted to walk fast but I figured that because we were already wet, why rush... so I didn't. An hour and a half later, we reached our house, I ran to the front door and waited on the step. It felt like Mummy took forever to catch up. The sky was having a tantrum, we were drenched and she was just casually wandering along. So I had no choice really, "MUMMY..." I shouted, "HURRY UP... ELLENAH WET... NOW"... Why is she always sooooooo slow???

Mummy ran us a bubble bath when we got home. It was full with bubbles and the water was orange (RED!)... we jumped in and turned in to mermaids. princess mermaids. We stuck our legs together and stuck out our feet, covered them in bubbles and they turned in to tails. We swam really far in the bath. I wish I was a mermaid all of the time...

When we got out of the bath, we put our pyjamas back on and had lots of cuddles. Mummy read lots of books with me. I like 'The Okay Book'  a lot... particularly page four, we read that page a lot, at least 1,2,3,4,8,9 times.

I love snuggly days with My Mummy. Mummy smiles a lot when I say "I love you Mum, you the best"...

x Ellenah x

Tuesday, 7 October 2014

Step In To Autumn....

It's official... nothing kicks off my Autumn quite like The Harvest Festival at Noah's school. At 2.40pm yesterday, Ellenah and I walked in to the school hall to find a space to watch what all of the children in year R and 1 have been working on. We were not disappointed. 

The festival was short and sweet but full to the brim with smiles, sweetness and singing. Prior to the festival, the parents donated food that will be offered to our local food bank. If any of you are unfamiliar with the idea of a food bank, it is a charity that will enable local people a food gift that will last a minimum of three days. 13 million people live in poverty in the UK... the charity offers a little aid and a little support for families in crisis situations. 

Sometimes life is hard and you never know when it could be you struggling. A little help goes a long way and if we can't help each other in the world... it is a really sad place to be. I for one am happy that Noah is learning about different ways that we can help each other and the importance of it. 

Anyway, on a brighter and slightly soppier note... is it just me or do any other parents have to fight back the tears at any school function in which their child is involved?? I thought that last year, my eyes were filling up at any little event because Noah was in his first year of school, it was all new, different and exciting.  Yes before you ask, I was the mother fighting back big, fat tears and let out the occasional sob at parents evening because his teacher was saying such wonderful things. I expected that this year the novelty would have worn off. Well, it didn't!

As soon as I saw Noah's little face as he walked in to the room, I felt my face flush and the familiar tickle behind my eyes as I could feel the tears try to escape. He hadn't seen me yet and I just stood back and observed as he searched the room for me. I saw him try to pick me out in the crown. BUT... the look on his face when he couldn't locate me was full of hurt, disappointment and sadness. I watched him think that (even though I haven't missed anything to date) I had forgotten, I wasn't coming, I wasn't going to be there- It was awful.

So, I'll be honest. I am THAT mum who makes her presence known in the room. I started with a little wave to get is attention. When he didn't see me, my wave grew. My arms were working out I have to tell you. I was about to yell from the top of voice "NOAH, I AM HERE!', when his school friend spotted me. Excellent!!! I then signalled to her to show Noah that I was there. We are talking arm movements, the hope that she can lip read and then a rather erratic mix of both as I edged closer to the front. Thankfully she understands crazy person and encouraged him to find me in the crowd.

His beautiful smile and smiling eyes when he clocked me is why I am this mental. The look on his face in that moment will take some beating and it reminds me exactly why I love being a Mum. Through all of the hard bits, tantrums, lack of sleep, constant worry and self doubt- the smile that you get from your children just simply because you are you, it makes it all worth it. completely.

Noah was fantastic, he was the best brussel sprout I have ever seen. He had been practicing his singing non-stop for days and it showed. he did a fab job. 

There are a good few weeks until the christmas play which I believe is my next scheduled tearjerker... I should probably use the time to get a grip... or maybe not?!!! I love feeling this proud of my Son and for the kind of boy he is growing to be and I know that he loves me no matter how emotional I can be. Next time, I'll just make sure I pack tissues- always a lesson huh?!

Lots of Love
x Maria x 

Monday, 6 October 2014

Magic Monday #8

Hey you wonderful lot.

As you may know if you read this post HERE, the previous week wasn't the best I've ever had. There was a lot of sadness and tears. However... I am a strong believer in making the best of every situation and finding the little things in each day that can make me smile. Life is too short to let our lessons, pain and heartbreak get us down, beat us and take away all of the good that the world has to offer. As people, we have to make ourselves find the good things, for our hearts, our healing and our smiles. We have no other choice.

Support Smiles
I am so thankful for all of the love that my family and I have experienced over the loss of our lovely kitten Forrest. I am ever so grateful and I can't quite explain how much it matters.

Cat Lovin'
For as long as the world allows it.... I still have Puddle and she brings me so much joy every day. She is beautiful and loving and right now she is a very soppy little ball of cuteness. I'm all about appreciating what I have right now... you don't know when that could be gone so it's best to make the most of it.

My Memories
When I think of Forrest... it still hurts! I think it always will. But.... nothing can take away the smile I get on my face when I think of him and all the happiness he brought us for his short time with us. I have to be thankful for that.

My Family Thumbs Up
I am lucky! I am surrounded by smiles, love and always somebody to lift my spirits. People who won't let me cave to the things that could wear me out and down. Being an emotional and incredibly sensitive soul... I need that. I need someone to slap me with a reality check every now and again.

My Family Thumbs Up (Again!)
I am proud of the little family that Matt and I have made and the family life that we have built. Through our loss this past week, we have pulled together, helped each other, picked each other up, talked and loved each other tremendously. How can I not smile at that.

New Friends To Adore
Forrest is completely irreplaceable to our family and some days I forget that he is gone. I think you get that with your family pets. You can almost feel their presence after they have gone as you walk around your home. If you haven't already guessed from this ramble.... We all loved him so much and he will be sorely missed.

However, we have to face facts and the truth is that our home feels different now. It doesn't feel the same now that there is only one kitten roaming around. We can feel it and so can Puddle. She is lonely. She has nobody to play with when we are not home. She has nobody to cuddle with when we are not around and she looks so lost. And.... honest I will be... I can't handle it it!!!

Which brings me to this...

Around the time that we lost Forrest, on the other side of town... a pretty little black and white kitten was found under a sofa by three elderly ladies. The poor little thing had been abandoned by its owners and left to fend for itself. After being handed over to our local vets, they were sure she wouldn't make it to the end of the day. But...she did! At four to five weeks old, she is being bottle fed and slowly weaned on to kitten food. I went to visit her today after the Vet reached out to me. Hearing of our loss, they enquired as to whether we would have space for her in our family.

At first I flatly declined. I was vulnerable, fragile and numb, busy wallowing in our loss. How could I ever save another cat again? It's too much heartbreak for one person to cope with when it goes wrong! However, something deep down inside me was telling me to go... at least to say hi. I heard she was beautiful after all...

She is beautiful.

I changed my mind. I am now known amongst my family as the crazy cat lady. I can't help myself because I can't see a baby kitten live its life in a cat rescue centre having never known what a family is.

I can't wait until she is big enough to come home to us (Whenever that may be...she is very small!).

I hope in time that Puddle loves and accepts her new friend and they can play, cuddle and get up to mischief together. Although I'm sure that it will take some time, she is naturally missing her brother and best friend right now.

I can't wait until Matt and I go and see her again on Thursday... I think i'm in love.

I hope that you are all having a super week, full of fun and all things wonderful.
Lots of Love
x Maria x